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Fin DAC & Kevin Ledo collaboration in Wynwood, Miami

Hello my lovelies, I’ve not written in a while. Kind of been laying low. How was the start to your New Year? It’s not a favorite holiday of mine (because I always wish I had someone special to celebrate it with), but it was okay actually. I rang it in with one of my favorite treats: a Godiva chocolate covered macaroon. So yeah, not earth shatteringly awesome, but not bad. The good news is, I didn’t spend it feeling sorry for myself. That’s progress.

Since I last wrote, my friend T lost her battle with cancer. That was pretty major. But the thing is, it was inevitable. I knew it was going to happen. I just didn’t know when, and I was dreading finding out. When it did happen, I was deeply sad, but not surprised. She practically lived in the hospital. Always in and out, always breaking bones, and she had constant trouble with her breathing. At the end of her life, she was carrying an oxygen tank with her wherever she went. T was definitely a fighter though, and always hopeful.  Always making plans, assuming that there would be a tomorrow. I feel so blessed that my life path ran parallel to such an amazing and loving human being. She was my sister, just not by blood, and I will always love her dearly.

I’ve gone on a few dates, though nobody is worth actual mention. I continue to put myself out there believing that one day, it’s going to happen for me. It’s encouraging that at my age I still get attention from very eligible and attractive men. Last week a rather handsome guy took me to Wynwood to check out some street art and chow down on the uber fabulous fried chicken at KYU. I honestly can’t remember having better (this was my second time going). That sauce it comes with … well, that must be what people mean when they say “awesome sauce.” Chicken was followed by some deliciously sweet and fluffy coconut cake. I’m not sure what it says about me that I talk about the food with so much more excitement than the man. He was nice … meh … nice. I’m not looking for NICE, I want to FEEL something… you know? Like with the fried chicken LOL. Passion. I seem to be no closer to finding love since I last wrote, but I keep trudging on.

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As for work, its been crazy as usual, but I actually had a very good month. I must have been a very good little show pony, as I was recognized as the best on my team for December. Plus, two of my customers left me great feedback on good service I provided. I must admit, it felt great to be recognized. I really did work hard. I hoping 2019 might have a promotion in store.

And that, my dears, is really it. What’s been going on with you? I wish you everything good and sweet in 2019 and always.

Tons of love,

Caroline

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Turns out, the world’s best avocado toast was right on my doorstep. This was f’ing exquisite.

This weekend was about me exercising some much needed self care. I mean, I think I always treat myself pretty well. In fact, I probably verge on self indulgent (but whatever). This weekend was different in that I kind of cocooned myself. It was all about spending some quality alone time with Moi-self. Except for some texts, I didn’t socialise whatsoever. Saturday I don’t remember going out at all. I just watched some gangster series on Netflix cause I thought the lead actor was super hot LOL… way to be discerning Caroline!! I did want to go to the beach, but it was too cold. Sunday afternoon the weather warmed. I spent an ungodly amount of time on Pinterest and leafed through magazines on the porch. I took a bubble bath and listened to guided meditations on YouTube. I had some Godiva chocolate and some organic pasta, but at no point did I binge (yay me). I was good. I stayed in my calorie range.

Another thing I did on Saturday was write out a list of goals for the upcoming year. This has become a new custom of mine. I’m not a fan of New Years resolutions per say, but every year I like to make some goals. If I achieve them, great. If I don’t, no biggie. I just like to have a bit of an outline.

Last year was pretty successful. Although I didn’t make my reading goal (not by a long shot) or my savings goal, I managed to do some pretty cool stuff. I stopped drinking Diet Coke. I achieved my weight goal and my travel goals. The best thing I did this year was buy a car (which is why I didn’t achieve what I had hoped in terms of savings — but I didn’t do too bad either). As far as my car is concerned, I did something that totally freaked me the fuck out. I am so proud of myself for doing it. I’m still mentally high fiving myself for that one. I’ve been driving for about 3 months now, and I’m getting increasingly confident. There are few things I love more than proving to myself that I am capable, and that I can do scary things. Maybe one day in the upcoming year I can do a road trip to the Keys! If I can do that, I feel like I will have conquered something major. I got plenty of space for anyone (brave enough) to join me!

The next year I have quite a few goals, nothing terribly ambitious, just little things that I feel will enhance my life a bit. Some of the goals are just for fun, and some are for improvement. What are your thoughts? Do you make goals? Do you write them down like I do? Do you make resolutions? I’m curious.

Monday was the last day of my three day weekend. I did venture out. I had some errands to take care of. I also had my final IPL treatment. So far, I’d say there is a 75% improvement when it comes to sun spots. I was able to accomplish this for the same price it would cost have me to buy an expensive jar of skin cream that I know would not have produced the same results. While it may not sound particularly pleasant to have lasers zap you in the face, for me, taking care of my skin and making myself beautiful is an act of self care. What else did I do?

I discovered the most amazing coffee shop called R1 Coffee Company, a real gem in my neck of the woods where everything is cookie cutter suburbia. There I had the most sublime avocado toast with all the extras (smoked salmon and poached egg) plus properly brewed tea — nobody in Florida does properly brewed tea! It was expensive, “but I’m worth it,” she said as she brushed her fingers through her hair. I really think I’m ruined from Panera now. I officially declare this as my new breakfast spot/ tea time hang out. A fine lady such as myself has to treat herself, that’s what self care is all about!

So tomorrow I’m back in to work… I’m gritting my teeth already, but I think I can handle it. I’ll close my eyes and think of avocado toast.

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Got your kick ass shoes ready for 2017?

Overall, I’d say 2016 was a good year. It had its ups and downs, but I can honestly say that my life is moving in a positive direction. It has been a year of intense growth. I can look back on it without any sadness or regret. In my book, that’s a success.

Things I accomplished this year:

  • For the first time I have medical insurance and a 401k… how freakishly adult is that?!
  • I became a licensed claims adjuster. I even have a certificate to prove it.
  • I’ve been to New Orleans, Arizona, and I saw the Grand Canyon, I ate tons of good food, and saw some great art.
  • I have a good job (even if it is a lot of work), AND I haven’t been fired.
  • I am surrounded by good people.
  • I’m getting stronger. I know it because I’m able to be more open with people. I’m less afraid to loose those that I care about. I’m realizing that if someone is meant to be in my life, they will be. This is true regardless of any stupid mistakes I make.
  • Although I have always HATED the phrase “you have to love yourself before anyone else will,” I am slowly starting to do that. Just in case you are wondering how I attempt such a feat, I make it a conscious effort to ask myself “what would a person who loves herself do?” when I am faced with choices. It is a habit I am trying to ingrain into my thought process.

For the upcoming year, I have some new things I’d like to accomplish:

  • Proficiency and competence in my job. I like to feel confident that I can handle things and that I know what I’m doing. Right now I’m kind of winging it. I take it day by day.
  • As for my travel goals, I’d like to visit somewhere I’ve never been. If I make this a goal year after year, I think I shall become quite worldly.
  • I plan to finally buy a car. I’ve been holding it off for a very long time because of the expense and responsibility,  but it’s not easy living in America without transportation. It’s time for me to suck it up, and get with the program. I’m hoping that the freedom having a car gives me will be worth the expense.
  • I’d like to get rid of Diet Coke from my life (and aspartame in general). I am addicted to the stuff, and I know it’s not healthy. Once upon a time I did kick my nasty habit. I did it for about two years… then my divorce happened and things went to shit. On the good side, it’s not crack. Crack I reserve for the weekend when Satan and have our knitting session. We knit, we gossip, we do some lines. It’s how we roll. Hey … kidding … I don’t even know how to knit 😜.
  • Financially I have an idea of how much I’d like to have stowed away in the bank… but you know … life.
  • I’d love to get to 120 pounds. I’ve never been able to reach that goal. Well maybe somewhere in my lifetime I was 120 pounds for one day, but can you believe that I never knew which day that was? Maybe I was 12?!? Being a foodie and maintaining a fabulous figure … no. One Levain cookie and I’m popping out of my jeans like a can of Pillsbury dough when the tab is pulled.
  • I wouldn’t be honest if I didn’t admit that I’d like to find love too. It’s not a goal, so much as it is a wish. It will come when the time is right, but it would be the best thing ever if it happened sooner rather than later.

I’m going to be ringing in the new year alone. I wish it could be otherwise, but it is what it is. I doubt I’ll stay up till midnight, but if I do, I will blow you all a kiss.  I’d like to wish you a very Happy New Year. I send you lots of love and good wishes for 2017.